March 15, 2025
To love yourself, is to trust that no matter what, you have the wisdom and inner guidance to know what your next best step will be. In a sense, becoming your own best friend is what will help you move through change and transition.
Good morning!
The sentence, “What we are unaware of controls us.” is something that has been reverberating in my head as I move through this commitment to myself. If you did not get a chance to read yesterday’s post, I touched on my 3 month commitment to self-realization and actualization. Basically, asking myself, “Who are you now?” and even more importantly, “Who do you want to become?”
To acknowledge who I am now, also means, acknowledging the patterns and habits that aren’t serving me. It’s interesting because I say this is a 3 month commitment, but I have this feeling that I may be posing these question’s to myself for the rest of my life. As chaotic as that may seem, it actually aligns with my desire to be the best version of myself. In having that goal, I have to align with growth and evolution and therefore, I have to sit comfortably with change.
I realize that I have only become more intentional about this because of my mom’s passing. There is something about losing my mom and realizing that she was not immortal, that made me come face to face with my own mortality.
I tell people often, “Logically, you know you’re going to lose your parent’s one day, but you do not realize the gravity of those logistics until you experience it.” Realizing that my mom was just a human being, makes me understand that death is true for me, too.
On the other end of that coin, it has sparked a deep desire to live. To really live. Not just say it or, place condition’s on it. I realize that in some ways, I have been living conditionally and, not that I want to live chaotically, but what I do mean, is I want to live more intuitively. More in the moment. More present. In fact, more trusting of the present.
That seems to be a commonly talked about idea these days. “I need to be more present.” is an easy thing to say, but to intentionally practice that, can be challenging. You realize, in the practice of presence, how much you actually are not present. If you think about it, it’s quite a simple practice, too. It is knowing when you’re not in the moment and then, bringing your mind back to the present moment, over and over and over and over and over again. It’s strange how something so simple, can be so challenging. Especially, in the world now, where there is an abundance of things going on at once and we have access to all of it. It is such a blessing, but can be tough to manage if you do not understand who you are, what you want and the life you hope to create for yourself.
Getting back to what I was saying earlier, “What we are unaware of controls us.” is part of the inspiration for me to dive more deeply into myself. I feel like I’m holding myself closer than I ever have. It’s both terrifying and wonderful at the same time. There is so much about myself that I am discovering. There are patterns that I’m still uncovering within myself. There are conditioned behavior’s that I didn’t even recognize, until recently.
The goal is to bring everything about myself into the light, so that I can make clear decision’s about who I want to be moving forward. What I’m realizing is, it’s not just about shedding light on all of me, but being able to do that without judgment. I am not trying to shame myself into change. I am simply wanting to empower myself into change.
There is also, this curiosity within me that wants to understand the pattern’s that I’ve created. Both good and bad and it’s bringing me all the way back to my childhood and it’s encouraging me to examine all of my past relationship’s and experiences. I am beginning to see how my behavior’s affected all of my experiences on both ends of the spectrum. I am understanding the part that I’ve played in everything in my life. It is an empowering position to be in because you realize that, you have the capacity to create your life however you want to and that you have more control than you think, over what manifests in your life. My goal is to become aware of what I’ve been unaware of, so that I can take better control over my life.
As I converse with others in my day to day, I realize that the energy of transition and change is dominant. Perhaps, I am just drawing these people to me because I am going through it. Many are realizing that they want different and are figuring out how to allow that to manifest in their life.
I love knowing that I am not the only one who feels the shift of change within them. I love having conversation’s with others about that shift and, that is partly why I was compelled to begin writing again. I realize I am never alone in my different season’s of life. To be honest about it is not just helping myself, but could potentially become a guiding light for others.
I think alot of the times, we shame ourselves for wanting different or wanting change. I know that I do, sometimes. I create these stories in my head that keep me stuck and feeling like, I have no right to want different. I am not deserving of what is different or more. I realize now, that those stories are not true and they are just old behavior’s that keep me in the same place because it’s familiar. I have managed to separate myself from those stories and learn to accept them because it worked for me at one point in my life. At least I think it did. The point is, it doesn’t work anymore and only keeps me stuck.
With that said, if you find yourself going through a season in your life, where you are in the midst of or are beginning to experience change and transition, please know that you are not alone. Please know that you are deserving of receiving more of what you truly want. I find that the best thing to do when you are walking into an unknown part of your life, is to get closer to yourself. To unconditionally love on and embrace whoever it is you are right now. To love yourself is to trust that no matter what, you have the wisdom and inner guidance to know what your next best step will be. In a sense, becoming your own best friend is what will help you move through change and transition.
I pray you were able to find something valuable from this.
I pray that, even if you are not going through transition or change, that you still choose to get to know yourself more and hold yourself closer.
I pray that you find the trust and confidence within yourself to know that no matter what happen’s in your life, all is well.
Love Always,
Ariel