March 25, 2025
The beautiful paradox of death, is that it has the potential to teach us the value of life.
Good Morning!
Today’s post is in honor of those who are currently grieving.
I have mentioned this in most of my earlier post’s, but I am currently grieving my mom. Her heart stopped beating at exactly 9:04am on December 11, 2024 and my life has not been the same since. Honestly, I am learning to move through the world without her. Re-defining what life means to me and how I can live the life she blessed me with, in honor of her.
It has been challenging and quite a wave of different emotions that exist on every single part of the emotional spectrum. As time creates healing, I find more clarity and get closer to my belief’s. More specifically, I find myself getting closer to God and trusting the experiences that continue to present itself. I’ve realized, that there is nothing that I can do, but fall into the honor of being able to experience the process of grieving. I say it is an honor because, grief is an indication of deep love and connection. We often grieve what we feel deeply loved and connected to. I love my mom. I feel as if I am even more connected and in love with her as she exist’s in spirit. I know now, she feels only the things that are filled with joy, love and fulfillment. All the things, that sometimes missed her in physical life.
Some days, I miss her so deeply. It literally manifests as pain in my body. My heart literally hurts and I cry. I am learning to be okay with it, however, and I am also okay, if I will experience moment’s like these for the rest of my life. I wouldn’t want to grieve anyone else. What does help keep me grounded, is reminding myself of what she would want for me. I believe what she would want for me is to live a deeply fulfilling life. One that is filled with many experiences of unconditional love, abundance and joy. She would want me to remain true to who I am. To flow with change and continue evolving and growing into the best version of myself. I believe she would say, “It is okay to experience sadness, but do not allow it to define you.” I believe she would expect me to move forward and carry her legacy in my heart and share it with the world in uplifting ways.
The beautiful paradox of death, is that it has the potential to teach us the value of life. Most especially, the value of our own life. My mom’s death reminds me to live with my whole heart and embrace life with my whole soul. These days, I seek meaning in everything that I do and experience. Even, if it is something I do not prefer. I have learned to treat every moment, as if it was supposed to happen. As a gift. And I sit patiently within the moment to see what is being offered. I wouldn’t be in this position if I didn’t experience the pain of losing my mother.
There are some valuable action’s my mom took prior to her passing that will change the trajectory of all the generation’s that follow her. To understand the depth of that, fill’s me with both, the understanding of my own responsibility moving forward and an incredible amount of appreciation that I have never felt before. I am honored to carry her legacy forward.
If you are experiencing grief, please know that my intention and heart is with you. I pray that you use your heart as a guiding light as you navigate through this darkness. I pray that in quiet moment’s, you can feel the presence of your loved one still with you, guiding you, loving on you. I pray that you find more of your self on the other end of this pain. Most of all, I pray that you choose to live your life fully and whole-heartedly, with courage and unconditional love in your heart and action’s.
Love Always,
Ariel